Happy Birthday to me.

Yesterday was my maths exam.

I've tried my best to do it but.

I'd did a lot of careless mistake.

I guess, there's no chance for me to get A.

I'm so disappoint.

It's hurt. I'm so sad.

Haiz.

I cried when I reached home.

I shout at my mum when I heard she asked me.

Feel so sorry, cause I can't control my emotions at that moment.

I also need to say sorry to my darling.

Make her heart pain. ><


I just toke moral paper just now.

Anyway, I saw a lot of things through my eyes.

I just act don't know infront of them.

I knew but I act and I shut my mouth.

I don't really feel happy anyway although tomorrow is my birthday.

I know that I will celebrate with my friends.

Anyway, I guess I will be fine soon.

I hope I will fine too.

Countdown:left less than 8 hours.

Cry On My Shoulder.

If the hero never comes to you

If you need someone You're feeling blue

If you wait for love and you're alone

If you call your friends nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide

Through a storm and through a lonely night

Then I'll show you there's a destiny

The best things in life they are free

But if you wanna cry, Cry on my shoulder

If you need someone Who cares for you

If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder

Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know

There's a place in heaven where we'll go

If heaven is a million years away

Oh just call me and I'll make your day

When the nights are getting cold and blue

When the days are getting hard for you

I will always stay by your side

I promise you I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry Cry on my shoulder

If you need someone Who cares for you

If you're feeling sad Your heart gets colder

Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry, Cry on my shoulder

If you need someone Who cares for you

If you're feeling sad Your heart gets colder

Yes I show you what real love can do

Really disappointed.

Haiz.

I thought english won't be so hard one.

I've got a lot of words that I don't understand.

I'm very disappointed.

Maybe I will read more only I can score my A in college. (maybe?)


History tomorrow. I'm going to come out early after finish.

It seems so bored. I don't know why some of them can score?

Maybe they're talented in memorizing?

Maybe?

Anyway, good luck. :(

Hmm.

Haiz.

Tomorrow is the fifth formers most important day.

Try your best tomorrow and for me too.

I will faint if I see my bm fail. T T

God bless. :(


I went 2 my darling's house today.

Actually I damn scare of her mum and the dog. ==

While her mum pull her dog 2 outside, the dog bites me. :S

I was shocked when it bites me.

At that time I already know, it bleeds.

My darling put some iodine on my knee and I felt pain.

I hope I'm fine. :o

The dog is quite cute but it barks and fierce.

I hate it! :(

Sorry.

You both are friends, because of me you both becomes strangers.

I already forgive you but the only thing is I can't accept what you did last time.

Maybe it's too hurt for me or what.

I didn't blame you, hope you understand.

The one who are doing such a bitch thing is me.


有时候我觉得你很欠打；有时候我觉得你很可怜。

Don't get angry, dude.

I'm just telling what I think last time.

It's already over.

I hope you both still friends like last time, excluding me.

Dude, don't worry be happy.

Peace! x]

Bye bye.

What am I doing actually?

I don't even know.

You seems like very angry and I felt a bit guilty.

Too late, you've removed me.

Nevermind, you can do whatever you like.

I don't hope any apologize again.

Just like that ok?

Don't do so much things to make me change my mind.

I hate it.

Because of YOU!

Because of you, makes me very upsad.

Because of you, makes us argue.

Because of you, makes me very fulan.

Because of you, makes everyone unhappy.


I admit that I did something that makes you unhappy too.

I had try to forgive you, but it fails.

I didn't say that I put the blame on you.

Both of us did wrong thing.

I apologize too but I can't forgive you.

That's my problem. It can't blame anyone.

I don't know why my girl doesn't want to forgive you.

Please don't ask me.


But now, everything already change.

The one who tries to pull friendship back is you.

The one who tries to apologize is you.

The one who tries to angry us again is you.

Nevermind.

My girl and I don't mind to lost a friend.

The one who tries to fed up is you.

Bye, dude.

You've changed or?

What can I say?

I don't even know what happened,because of something?

I really can't say it here. I knew actually.

You guys just no need to do so many thing infront of me.

I've already know, EVERYTHING.

I know what you wanted to do for what.

I know what you wanted to help.

I don't want to say! I'm just acting don't know.

You thought I'm that stupid?

No! I can see, feel and analyze.


The one who changed is not you.

It's me. The one who changed a lot is me.

Maybe, I'm like that?

I really can't "tahan" what you scold.

You don't even want to listen what people is trying to giving you some advice!

People say you is because we're your friends.

Do you think properly?!

You wanted to being a waiter for the rest of your life?

I don't want to see my best friend become like that!

Nevermind, I rather keep my mouth shut better than saying lots of things.

What for doing a best friend that wasting my saliva and my strength?

Useless. She also don't want to hear.

MrLouZai! Wake up.

You don't need to be sad because of this kind of friend.

I can't control my emotions. I'm a very stupid person.

You do whatever you like; you think whatever you think.

I don't feel like want to hear any thing from you.

Anyway, good luck in SPM.

Hope you can reach your mind to being a bar tender.

Bye.

You've CHANGED.

Do you still remember when you're in Form 1?

I'm still a prefect in class. You're beside my class.

There's a lot of happy moments with you until now.

Do you know you changed a lot?

Do you know I started to feel upsad?

Do you know that?

It's ok if you don't know.

I will just show you how "black" is my face.

I cant tahan your attitude.

Your face. Always the same!

If you're not my best friend.

I will just give you a slap! I hate that! Do you know?!

Fine, I will just don't answer what you ask.

Let you feel that what's the feeling to showing your "lan" face to someone.


I'm not in a good condition recently.

I feel like wanna everything, everyone treat me in a bad way.

I dislike it very much.

Maybe it's my fault and I don't know?

Maybe it's you guys make me angry?

Haiz. I just wanna relax myself.

Tell myself. No pressure.

补习~T^T

还记得我第一天去补习时，脸还蛮臭的。

因为我妈妈，竟然逼我去补习，那时候我刚打完篮球。

整身都很疲累，她依然要我去补。

当我第一眼看见老师的样子时，给我的感觉就是，书呆子的样~

第一天补习时，对班上的同学都很陌生，我的人就是这样。

不太认识就不太对别人说话。

老师把我安排跟1个肥婆坐，因为那个肥婆也是喜欢打篮球的。











(我，干爸[肥婆]，干妈)
我第一次带这种发夹！丑死了==









就这样，我们就认识了5年。


我还蛮羡慕老师，她很聪明。

很用心很努力的教我们。

我还曾烦过她，一直信息她，老师，历史要怎样才能及格？

她有时没回我，有时回我，她只会说一句，历史，是用来背的。

我从中一放假就开始补到现在，很多事情都在那里发生。

我的老师，已是我干姐了。

我的干姐夫，也教会了我很多东西。

他们教会了我很多东西。

直到去年的11月多，我的干姐生了儿子。

真替她感到开心。 =]

我只见过她儿子1次，还蛮可爱的，赫赫。


转眼间，很多东西都变了。

昨天已是我们最后一天相处的日子。

没想到，美好时光那么快就过了。




















朋友们，

在这里祝福你们SPM考满A，我相信你们可以的。

加油吧。

别忘了我哦=]

姐，

我一得空就去探望你，不会忘记你曾对我说过的每句话，我会把它记在心里。

谢谢您，这5年来的教导。

我也不会忘记姐夫对我说过的每句话。

Singapore.

Hey yo. :D

Finally I'm back. :)

3 days 2 night at Singapore.

Quite fun for the 2nd day.


Day 1

Woke up at 6am but seems too tired.

I went to sleep again.

Until 6.30am, my mum woke me up.

After that, went to brush teeth + everything.

I wax my hair until very fast because we have to reach aunt's house at 7am.

I'm sorry because I take too much of time to wax my baby hair. ><


Day 2

Woke up at 6.50am.

I brush my teeth and online.

Check my facebook see whether got people leave comment or not.

After that, about 7.30am. I offline and went to change my clothes.

I wax my hair and went to the lobby.

My aunt told my mum that she scared me and my brother cant woke up.

I'm like : fuck lah. Impossible ok? ==

We went to eat breakfast together.

I ate fishball noodles and drank a cup of milo ice. :D

Fishball noodles cost $2.50 and a cup of milo ice cost $1.20

It's so cheap for they all. Some more the fishball is big not like ours, small like hell.

I hope that I can stay there with my dear.

After that, we went to Universal Studios.

I keep "fishing" in the car because I ate until very full. ==

About 15 minutes, we reached Universal Studios.

I can't imagine that there's a lot of things to do, things to buy, things to watch and things to play.

We stay there for whole day until night that time.

It rains. :(

Unfortunately, we can't watch the fireworks.

We have to go back to the hotel to take our bath.

We reached hotel at 10pm and I went to bath quickly.

I hope can see my darling online and we can chat but she didn't reply me. :[

I wondering maybe she was too tired about the charity.

At first, I fall asleep 1st. After that, I woke up again.

I saw my brother fell sleep and then I sleep also.


Day 3

Woke up at 7am.

Went to brush teeth, everything.

Go for breakfast again at 8am.

My leg was so tired because of yesterday.

We walk here and there. Wait for those games.

Soon, I ordered nasi lemak and milo ice. :D

The nasi lemak was great and tasty. I love it so much! :)

After breakfast, we went to Chinatown.

We walk around there and see whether got things to buy or not.

I saw a shop that sold sunglasses.

I went inside and try. At last, I bought 1. :p

I forgotten where we went first. ==

My mum bought Beyonce's perfume. It smells good and sweet. Not bad. :)

I asked my dad to give me $100 and my parents bought me a Odm watch. :D

Oh yeah, thank them so much. ><


We had a great time at Singapore but I hope that I can stay there for the rest of my life with my darling.

That's my hope.

I hope 1 day I can success.

Hehe. ><

o0o

Who u think u r?

U tot we wanted 2 scold u?

Becz u jz lik sum1!

COPY CAT!

Same! Ur mind is stil a half month baby.

U SUCK.

U're nt qualify 2 say her becz u gt no brain.

U oni gt a child brain. Childish lik hell.

Do u think be4 ur own problems?

Do u even think be4 2 chng ur attitutes?

No! U even think tht u're the most LENG ZAI in L world.

Fuck off. If u wanna b famous, go away.

The 1 who makes ppl hate u is ur own self.

Who wants 2 listen 2 u?

Jz ur FRENS only MAH.

So wt? "Hou lan dai"?

Nah. o0o


U jz think tht becz of us make u lik tis.

FUCK lah. We didnt ok.

Is ur GIRL wanted 2 folo 1.

Hw cn u simply blame ppl?

Love some1 gt fault?

U tot wt u did be4 cn chng everything?

No, it wont.


Think properly lah. Hmm.

U're so foolish.